Disclaimer: I do not own the people from the story. All characters of this fiction is owned by Joss Whendon and Mutant Enemy
Note for the readers about the fiction: This is the first part of a series called Desire To Love. This is the first fan fiction I’ve ever written, you might find it a bit sloppy or not very well organized. I don’t know how long I’ll make it, but it’ll be awhile before I get to the end. Like most writers, I hope to do my work with an unique style of mine own, you might understand it when you read my story and find it making the fiction very long. So please be patient and enjoy as you read (English is not exactly my best subject, I have no doubt that you will find some grammatical error. But you should be able to understand my words). At the beginning of this fiction, I put a few scenes of the episode which I set the series after with a few additional details as well as some alteration. Therefore I strongly recommend that you watch the show first before you read, unless you don’t mind being spoiled.
Summary:(This fiction takes place after the episode Him. As mentioned above, a few altered reminders for the episode are placed before the fiction starts. And Once again, I strongly recommend that you watch the show before reading this fiction, or you might not have a clue how it starts.) This chapter is called Conspiracy of Desires. R.J. is actually not as a clueless, and ignorant figure as he was seemed and given credit to be in the episode about the jacket and the effect it has on the females. He has a big plan, and events that took place in the episode were part of it.
Rating: NC-17
Scene 1
:As Principle Wood’s finishing up lecturing the boy who seems to be able to charm every girl that sees him, Buffy stood by her desk and stared him with a pair of angry eyes thinking, “ he’s so not gonna to countine doing whatever he’s doing to Dawn and all other girls.”
“ How about if you try doing your own homework for a change? No more getting these young, impressionable women to do it for you. Avoid detention, R.J. Sound good? ” said Principle as he let R.J. out of his office.
“ Whatever ” R.J. responded right after taking a quick side-peek at another direction “I hope I’m getting her attention.” He thought with an almost-smile.
“ Oh, sweet infectious enthusiasm. ” Principle said sarcastically. With that, he walked back to his office, while R.J. starts to walking back to class, and intentionally taking a way that he knew that he would be stopped by Buffy.
“ Whoa. Hang on there, slappy. I'm not done with you yet. ” Buffy halted him. “ You are gonna to learn not to mess with the little sister of Buffy the school counselor, and the Vampire Slayer. ” She thought determinedly as R.J. stopped walking.
“ Oh, man. Like it's not bad enough I got that guy riding my back all the time. Now I gotta deal with you, too? ” R.J. said with a tired sound. But in his mind he was yelling, “ YES! So now it begins! ”
With an unfriendly smile, Buffy said, “Actually, I'm a bit more formidable than Mr. Wood. You might come to look fondly on his back-riding.” Ended with a very unfriendly serious expression, and wondering, “ Is he as stupid as he looks? Or he really has no idea what he’s about to face? ”
“ Yeah, but come on… ” said R.J. sounded more tired, and pretending to walk away.
“ Sit ” Buffy instructed, and R.J. sat down on the chair next to him. ”
“ So the fun begins ” They both thought, except that Buffy had no idea what this insidious boy was about to do.
“ Hey, I told him I was sorry about the homework. ” R.J. said“
You really are stupid,” Buffy thought, feeling irritated as she said, “ Mmm... not the homework, Mr. Wizard. The girls. What you're doing to them. In specific, my sister.” Afterward she thought “ Now I hope I’m clear.”“Hey, I didn't do anything to your sister,” said R.J. and he thought “ Better say something to make her nervous. ” He continued, “And you saw how hot she looked last night. I think that proved that she…”
Before he could finish that sentence, Buffy turns away, hands up, to avoid the conversation. “Aah! No more with the talky.” she sounded nervously.
“ Good! It worked ” R.J. felt amused and satisfied.
Buffy went on “Look, I know how guys like you work. You turn on the charm, you get whatever you want, no matter who gets in your way, right?
“ Time to make the move, gotta make this convincing. ” R.J. silently said to himself as he stands up. “OK, look, it's not like that ” R.J. said as he and starts putting his jacket on. Before he could finish, Buffy pushed him back to his seat, refusing to let him off hook yet. “ I just get along really well with girls, ” finishing what he was saying.
“ Oh really!” Buffy thought as she starts speaking again. “Oh, I see how you get along.” She turns to pace while she rants on. “Oh, look at me, I'm Mr. Quarterback” while Buffy’s facing away, R.J. finishes putting on his jacket. At this point he gave her an evil stare briefly and thought, “ Nope, but now you’ll see how I get along. Because you are gonna love me!”
“I crush little girls and all their little feelings. All I have to do is….” She paused as she turns facing him now, before she went on with her words, she suddenly felt weriod.
“ Wow, he’s hot” the thought entered her mind, her demeanor started going soft.
“ Good it’s working ” R.J. tries as hard as he could to remain still and show no expression.
Buffy’s expression changes to show that as if she’s in pain, not looking at R.J. as she struggles mentally “ No! he’s not hot, he’ just…Oh! Could you just hold yourself together?”
R.J. could see the effect is starting and feels more pleasant than before.
She manages to say, “ lead a team of high school athletes trying their best to do a good job. Everyone depending on me. That is a lot of pressure.” Sounded understanding. Still having some resemblances of herself she thought “ Wait! That didn’t come out right at all! ”
She adds on, “ But it doesn't mean you get to disregard other people's feelings.” Trying to get back to where she was.
“ Gotta act cool and calm now. ” R.J. decides to say “ It’s not like I meant to hurt anyone.
“Right” Buffy said understandingly and sits on the table besides the boy, feeling like getting close to him as she completely forgot why she started lecturing this guy in the first place. Now she wants to sound nice to him. “I know that. It's just…you're a leader, a captain, OK? People look up to you. You need to keep that in mind when you…..” Buffy paused again; distracted by looking at his body, and once more thought, “ Wow! God, he is SO hot. ”
“ I bet you run a lot, huh? I mean, they work you pretty hard, don't they? ” her voice was that of a admiring fan, almost like a lovesick fool.
“ Good! She’s completely under it! ” R.J. thought as he tries to keep the act. He stands up, “ yeah. I guess so. ” he sounded as normal as he could.
Wanting to get his attention now. Buffy thought, “ gotta act young! Gotta sound young! ” and comes up with her best lines. “I get that. I do. I'm there. Or at least I was there when I was still in high school. Which I was, just a couple of years ago, really. You know, I just realized that I'm basically the same age as you. I'm not really older at all, actually. Just like you, but with the sexual experience and stuff. ” Rubbing the front of her neck as she speaks, and smiles with a blushing expression. At the end of those words, Buffy thought, “ and you might want me to put them to use on you. ”
“ I think I hear what you're saying. ” R.J. told her with a satisfying smile, and made a note to himself in his mind. “ Phrase One of the plan, completed. ”
A colleague comes into the office. Buffy takes that as the cue that she’s talked enough, for now. “ Um, right, I'm…. I’m really glad that w-we had this talk, so, uh, I think you'd better to get back to class. ” she stands and clears her throat, changing the tone of her conversation to seem more professional, and barely managed to sound the way she did.
“ OK. Thanks ” said R.J. and walk toward the exit.
As R.J. leaves the office, he gave Buffy one last look and mentally stated “ Time to start thinking about the Phrase Two. ”
Buffy on the other hand, kept staring longingly at the direction R.J. walked to thinking, “ Oh! The LOVE of my life! ” and grinning like a lovesick fool.
Scene 2
When Buffy woke up next morning, the first thing she could think of was how to impress the boy who she believed to be the love of her life. “ What kind of outfit would he like? ” She wondered and immediately launched herself to her closet. “ Gotta put on something sexy, oh well, maybe not too sexy. Something that makes me look pretty and young! ” Then she spotted a hanger with a black satin shirt and a short skirt. “ These will do nicely. ” She thought and made a big smile at her reflection in the mirror, holding the outfit in front of her.* * * * * * * * * * *
Buffy was so excited when she walked into the school; at the thought of seeing her “lover.” “ It’s gonna be my high school love day today. ” Still having the smile she had earlier. She went to her desk in the guidance office and requested a copy of class schedule of R.J. Brooks. Trying to figure out where and when is the best time and place to get alone with him. It took her a few hours to finally find a room that’s currently not in use. “ This will make a great love nest! ” She thought excitedly. She then headed straight to the classroom where R.J. is supposed to be at the time, on her way there, she kept reminding herself how to act,“ remember don’t screw this up! Gotta sound young and pretty. Act like as if you are a senior or 17, anything to attract him. ” When she finally arrived the classroom, she gave herself a last statement before knocking the door. “ The adventure of true love begins. ” She proceeded with the knocking and spoke her request to the teacher. “ Sorry to interrupt, but we need to see R.J. Brooks down in the guidance office. ”
The teacher gave R.J. the ok to go. “ You are earlier then I thought. Phrase Two begins! ” R.J. followed as Buffy led him out of the room.
When they got into the unused room, R.J. looked around, noticed that there’s nobody in the room while Buffy closed the door. “ This is going to be great! ” Still trying to act as if he knew nothing, he said to Buffy, “ There’s no one here. ”
“ Yeah there is, ” she points to him and said, “ there’s one of you, ” then she points to herself, “and there's one of me, ” then she walked up to him, touching his back shortly and moved to a desk nearby. “ You were the one in math class. Tell me what that adds up to. ” she smiled slightly and sat on the desk, facing him, and with her legs crossed, clearly exposing the beautiful muscles from her thighs to her ankles.
R.J. enjoyed and took a look of the view for a millisecond, then quickly look back to her in the eye. “ Definitely need to play along and pretending well now. ” “ So. Is this some kind of special meeting between a student and the school counselor? ” R.J. smiled, thinking it’s the most convincing question to ask.
“ Yeah, it’s really important for me get to know the students well. I’d have to ask some personal questions. I thought this place is perfect for the privacy. ” Buffy played along with what she thought of what he believed as the true meaning of this meeting.
“ Well. So what kind things you are that interested in me to make personal questions? ” R.J. asked deliberately with a cute smile, knowing that would put arousal in her mind, if there weren’t some already.
And it worked, by making her think, “ Everything. ” But instead, she says, “ Actually, I’m more interested in asking you about matters concerning the things you are good with. Football, for example! ”
“ Well, ok, go ahead and ask. ” R.J. responded with a small smile. “ Oh! Man! Can’t wait for what’s coming next from this gal. ” He could barely contain the excitement he was feeling.
Buffy began, “ I've always been fascinated by football. So, what's it like to lead a team? ” Still has a bit of slight smile on her face, her eyes glowing with lust.
“The thing of it is, the time. Nobody gets how much time goes into it, with practices and games. ” R.J. answered the question with the attempt of making it sound that he’s been under pressure. “ That may make her talk nicely. ”
Buffy talked back, “ I totally get it. I was kinda juggling some stuff when I was in high school. ” sounded as if she totally understood. “Ho! Wait! Gotta sound young remember? ” She continued, “ which was also very recent. Principal Snyder was always on me ” she spoke like she’s complaining about her old high school tough times, believing it would make him feel she’s similar to him, and attractive.
Now R.J. starts complaining, “ I still say Wood's the worst. You haven't seen the way that guy rides me. I wish somebody'd get him off my back. ” But he didn’t mean anything of the sentence. “ I’m getting something worth infinitely more than getting rid of that black guy. ”
“Yeah, that would be cool.” Buffy told him. She lost almost all attention to what he was saying. She stared at his face blankly, her smile still had not faded, and the shine in her eyes were getting brighter slowly. R.J. kept on, “and sometimes, I didn't even do anything wrong….” Buffy didn’t really hear those last words as she grabbed him to her by collar to kiss him deeply.
R.J. was a bit surprised and enjoyed her sudden move immensely, “ God! She tastes a million times better than I thought. ” The contact of their mouths stayed intact for a moment. Then he pulls back. “ You're like a teacher. ” trying to let her know he’s not the one who started the whole thing. “ So you can’t blame me or accusing me of violating you if you ever get back to your right mind .”
“ Not really. ” Buffy said sweetly, “ But, I mean, does it bother you? ” a little concerned
“ Not so much ” he told her as he thought, “ not at all.”
They kissed again and laid down on the desks with Buffy on the bottom. Their kisses were getting more intense as time went on. R.J.’s mouth went to her neck and started nibbling, Buffy then whispered into his ear, “ you seem to be taking this conveniently. You do know that most girls like shy guys right? ” she questioned with a naughty smile. Suddenly, R.J. froze dead, not sure what she meant. Once again, she gave him a surprise, by flipping him onto his back on the desks, setting herself at a spot below his belly, straddling his hips. “ But some girls like bad boys,” Buffy smiled almost evilly and R.J. gave her a similar expression. She then bared her shoulders by pulling her blouse halfway off, and threw away her shoes. They continued their little battles of their mouths; instinctively her hands went down to his jeans and undid his zipper. “ Oh! God! This is too good to be true. ” As he got excited, the length between his legs thrusted up through his undergarment, touching Buffy’s hot spot through her panties. She moaned softly into his mouth at this feeling. But before they got more intense…
“ Buffy, I think Dawn needs y ….Uuh! ” Xander bursted in, almost horrified by what he was seeing. They were stopped by his intrusion. He felt he had to do something, but there was no time dealing with this right now. “ I'm sorry. It's just checkout time was an hour ago. We were hoping to make up the bed. Also, it's a classroom, you chowder-heads! Now get off the boy, Buffy. We're going home. ” Not wanting to wait around for an explanation, he left the room to wait for Buffy. She got on the ground, and started dressing herself properly. “ Well. That wasn’t so bad. ” she said to R.J. with another small, but cute smile ”.
“ Nope. It wasn’t bad at all. ” R.J. said back to her. “ Why did we need to get interrupted? Looks like there need to be a change in Phrase Two. ”
Buffy stared at him in the eye for five seconds and starts again, “ well if you’d like you can find my address from the guidance office, and you could stop by tonight if you want to. We could….” R.J cut her off before she was finished. “ Yeah! Sure, I’ll be there. ”
“ Good! ” she smiled with spirit again, “ See ya tonight then, ” giving him another smiley look before she exited the door. R.J. too smiled toward her direction until she was gone. He sat back on the desks and held his head with hands as he felt puzzled . “ Oh! I hate this, now I need to change the plan, and fast. Before anyone realizes and ruins it. ”
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Conspiracy of Desires
R.J. was standing outside the Summers house before a window, observing the Scooby Gang as they burned the jacket. After the gang decided that they had enough for a night and refused Anya’s invitation for ice creams, they each went their separate way, leaving only Buffy and Dawn. “Gotta pay full attention to this. ” He thought as he observed the two sisters
“ Well now that things are back to normal, or at least as normal as it was before the love spell. You should go to bed, there is school tomorrow. ” Buffy told to Dawn with professionally serious tone, and her hands on her hips. She was glad that she could sound like herself again.
“ How about you? You gotta go to school tomorrow as well? ” Dawn asked, feeling unfair.
“ I wanna stay here for a while longer to make sure this jacket turns into ashes completely. Just in case.” Buffy told her. Then she looked down and sighed. “ And there are a few things I want to think over.” She confessed, wanting to be honest with Dawn.
“ So, what do you want to think over? ” Dawn asked out of curiosity
Buffy hesitated for a moment before she let out the word, “ R.J.” she spoke awkwardly
“ What? ” Dawn practically yelled, worried that if her sister is still under the spell
“ No, not to think about him ” Buffy quickly amended, trying to clear things up. “ I need to think about what I’m suppose to do with or tell him. ” Dawn felt a little bit relieved.
“ Why? ” Dawn asked with a puzzled expression on her face
“ Well, it is obvious that he’s not a good guy. ” Buffy stated, “ But he’s still a person. You can’t just tell person; a guy in this case that you like him and arrange a date with him and then dump him and pretend nothing happen. ” She told her little sister seriously, almost guiltily, remembering that’s pretty much what she did to Spike.
Dawn thought for a moment before she starts talking again, “ yeah that makes sense. You did kinda go deeper and more intense with him than any of us. But didn’t you just tell me that it wasn’t our faults, it was the spell. And now that it’s gone, he’ll be out of minds of all other girls. No doubt he’ll get over any disappointment in no time. Why do you need to clear things with him? ” Dawn was trying to understand, as she was doing right before the spell affected her.
“ Dawnie, ” Buffy called her sister’s name gently. “ It may not be our fault what we tried to do for him because of the spell. But we are responsible for what we did directly to him. Like you just pointed out, I got pretty intense with him and if I just tell him “I’m sorry, it’s wrong and over”, that would most likely break his heart. Just because he’s not really someone I know and owe any explanation to doesn’t mean doing that to him is right. ” she spoke heartedly from the experience with Spike and the time she was poisoned and almost killed everyone she loved; she was trying desperately to make her little sister understand a right thing to do.
R.J. smiled. He was happy that he had a little spot in Buffy’s mind. “ This is a great start! ” He thought.
“ Yeah. I guessed you are right. ” Dawn agreed. “ So how long are you going to think about this? ” Dawn questioned again.
“ Not very, I hope. ” Buffy answered, not really sure herself. “ But I wanna talk to him tomorrow. The sooner I get this over with, the better. ” she said
“ Oh well. I’ll leave you to think this over then. Good night ” with that she went upstairs, leaving Buffy in the living room.
Buffy turned around, and saw that the jacket is pretty much all ashy. She sat on the couch for a few minutes. Feeling need for some fresh air, she walked to the doorstep and got out of the house. She felt less tense being in the outside world; took a deep breath and leaned her back on the wall.
R.J. saw her outside of course. “ Maybe I should to go her now! ” Feeling a strong urge within him and he moved slowly closer to where Buffy was.
“ You can show up anytime you want now. You know that you can’t really hide from me around here. ”
“ WHAT! ” R.J. froze dead, he was really close to panicking.
“ I wasn’t really hiding. You just seemed busy thinking, didn’t want to bother you. ” A British voice.
R.J. was surprised for the sudden occurrence of the voice for a moment. But then he became relieved that he wasn’t caught. A second later he saw the figure that talked to Buffy, he felt a bit of rage as he recognized the guy dressed in black with bleached hair. “ IT’S HIM !” The expression on his face showed extreme anger.
Buffy and Spike remained silent for a while. He decides to break the silence. “ So. I heard that jacket gave some bloody rushes and you got bloody intense and obsessed with that boy today. ” Spike said trying to hide his jealousy
“ Yeah I did. But that wasn’t really me. It was a spell. A love spell to be exact. ” Buffy told him, trying to make him understand.
“ Oh, well, that’s a bloody surprised. But you seem to be in a state of suffering from misery. Again ” Spike said, remembering how she felt the last time they conversed at her doorsteps.
Looking down at her feet. She thought for a moment, “ It’s just….I feel like I started doing something that I did before. And last time this kinda thing happened, I ended it with a wrong action which led to some bad stuff. Now there’s a similar situation and I’m trying to find a right way to handle it this time so things won’t turn as bad as last time. ” Buffy said heartedly, looking him in the eye as she spoke the words.
Knowing what she’s talking about, Spike decides to leave her. “ Well then, I’ll leave to give you less distraction. ” He turned and started walking away from the house.
Buffy called after him lightly, “ Spike! ” He turned to face her. “ I’m glad you are sane again. ” she told him with a glad expression on her face. But Spike showed no reaction to her words. He turned and continued walking away. Buffy sighed again and went back into the house.
R.J. decided that he’s learned enough, he carefully moved away from the Summers house, taking caution that he could still be discovered. After a while he finally made his way to his place, a little apartment quite a few objects that’s associated with magic in it. He walked into his bedroom and opened his jackets, revealing a dozen Sunnydale sport jackets in it. “ Good thing I always kept backups ” He smiled to himself and picked up the real jacket; the one with the love spell effect. And he took something out of its right packet. A picture of Buffy. “ Time to complete the adjustment. ” He thought as he grabbed a can full of pink powder and a match. He put the picture on the letter of the jacket, and put some powder on the match, which bursted blood-red flame. He spread the rest of the powders on the jacket before he set the flame on the picture, which resulted the whole jacket burning with red flames. The fire died quickly, leaving the jacket glow with pink aura that faded in couple of seconds. He held up the jacket proudly and thought, “ now it’s time to get back to the Phrase Two. And by the way sweetheart, have a sweet dream. ” He grinned with the feeling of satisfaction again
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Buffy had just finished taking a shower and dressed herself in a comfortable pajama. It’s been hours since Spike left her to think, and she still has no clue on how to talk to R.J. to not hurt him. “ Well, I guess I’ll have to go with the apology first, and hope that’s acceptable to him. ” She thought.
She lay on her bed to start sleeping. As she got sleepy, she felt her body started heating up slowly, especially the spot between her legs. She felt really itchy and began scratching herself. Soon she found herself unable to stop rubbing because it was making her feel really comfortable as he remember the sensation she felt earlier when R.J.’s length touched her there.
She opened her eyes and confused to find out that she was no longer in her room, but in a brightly white space. She panicked frantically at the next thing she noticed; she was completely naked. Not wanting to feel exposed, she covered herself as much as she could with her hands. She heard a sound and turned around. What her saw horrified her. It was R.J., smiling and he was naked too. Her face showed the expression of worry, and her eyes scanned around.
“ What’s this? Where have you taken me and why…. ” she was cut off when his hands grabbed her shoulders and pulled her dangerously close to her.
“ I knew you’d come to me ” R.J. said, and launched his lips to hers, kissing her hard. Buffy’s eyes went wide when she felt the contact. Once again, she experienced an increditable sensation, she struggled for a moment, but his kiss felt so good to her that she couldn’t resist. She gave in, and grabbed his head to press his mouth closer to hers. They both fell on the ground. He immediately got on top of her. His hands went to her bare breasts. She shouted her eyes, she moaned softly as he massaged them. Then his fingers got to her nipples, squeezing them gently, before he took one of them into his mouth. Buffy continued to moan as R.J. kept playing with her soft flesh. He then started kissing her stomach and thighs. He pushed her legs apart, she looked at him for a second. Before she starts begging, he positioned and thrust deeply into her heat.
She gasped out, her demeanor expressing she was in pain. But she was actually feeling great with him inside of her. His paces never slowed, and were almost more than Buffy could take. As she neared her orgasm; his movement remained consistent. She cried out loud as she felt herself exploded.
She got up and froze still. She was confused again when she found out she was in her room, sitting on her bed. She looked at her clock and it shows, 5: 51 A.M. She had no idea what happened. “ It must have been a dream. An aftereffect of the spell. Yeah it must be. ” She thought as she decided to get up. But she found another unexpected surprise when she pulled the sheets down and saw the chest portion of her pajama shirt torn around her breasts. “ Oh! No ” Buffy felt disgusted as she realized what she must have done when she was dreaming. A worse discovery came up as she felt stabbing pain between her legs when she moved her lower body. She removed her pajama pants and underwear, and she saw the area between her legs were dark bruised. “ This just gets better and better. ” Buffy felt so dirty and lost. She had enough trouble finding a way to clean the problems caused by a love spell. But apparently the problems were just getting messier. She put her hands around her head, as she tried to figure out what to do. “ I hope slayer healing power can make me feel better soon. How am I suppose to tell and face the others? And how am I gonna clear things with the boy now? ”
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Buffy thought she wouldn’t be nervous to be her seat in the guidance office again. But she had major self-inflicted bruise that put her in an uncomfortable position today. She had managed act well before Dawn and the others after she left her room in the morning. It hurt her every moment as each step she took. Willow was the first to notice Buffy walking awkwardly. Not wanting anyone to know the truth, she lied that she was sore from sleeping late. Everyone seemed to be convinced.
Buffy had only told Willow about the dream. But instead of a sex dream, she told her it was a nightmare about fighting R.J. who was a vampire. And it was a tough fight that lasted a long time before dusting him, and she was wounded badly. She asked Willow if it could be a aftereffect of the spell. And Willow told her no, that love spells don’t produce aftereffects.
Knowing this, Buffy felt a little bit better thinking it means she won’t have to deal R.J. anymore, at least in her mind. But she still felt very uncomfortable with where she stood this day. Because she couldn’t possibly walk as much as a few inches without her showing her pain, she had to keep asking her colleagues to get things and pass messages for her with lies about her legs being injured. Lucky for her, everyone seemed to not doubt her excuses, again. She stayed seated behind her desk whole day.
But one thing that made her really nervous and uncomfortable was her choice of attire. She was wearing a blue blouse, a long gray skirt, and a pair of high-heeled white shoes. It was against her better judgment. Before she had gone to sleep last night, she had decided that dressing herself with a ordinary shirt, jeans, and tennis shoes would be a good approach to show R.J. her lack of interest in him. But her newly arised physical problem made jeans a bad choice.
“ These will have to do. I hope this doesn’t lead him on ” Buffy thought. She waited for R.J. to come, not wanting to go to him, which could lead him thinking it’s another private meeting. She was getting impatient for R.J.’s lack of appearance. Half a day had passed, and R.J. was still no show. “ Maybe I didn’t lead him on as much as I thought. ” she thought, hoping it’s true so she won’t have to talk to him at all, felt a bit troubled as she found her inner voice sounded that of disappointment. “ Why would I be disappointed if I didn’t attract him? I wonder if he came to school at all today. ” She tried to get out of her chair to check, and regretted immediately when her felt the pain between her legs and was reminded of her condition. It didn’t hurt as much as it did in the morning, but still bad enough to make her walk unsteadily. She sighed as she sat back down on her chair. She picked her cell phone out of her purse and dialed the numbers.
“ Hello, ” Willow anwered
“ Hey Will. It’s me ” Buffy said
“ Hey Buffy! ” Willow said as cheerfully as always
“ Yeah. Remember my soreness? It’s better now. But at the rate I’m healing, I don’t think I can slay tonight. ”
“ Oh, poor Buffy ” Willow said, feeling miserable for her friend.
“ I know it’s been a while since you guys did this without me, but could you take Xander or Dawn to patrol for me tonight? ” Buffy requested
“ Sure! ” Willow answered without a doubt. “ Have a easy time. And take care! ”
“ Bye. ” Buffy said and hanged up the phone.
“ Buffy ” called Principle Wood, standing by his office door.
She turned and answered. “ Hi Principle Wood. ”
“ I have to ask you a favor. There’s something I gotta do tonight. Could you help me finishing some work? ” Wood asked.
“ What kind of work? ” Buffy questioned
“ Well, as you know, so kids are screwed up with their academic works, resulting bad grades. Like R.J. Brooks remember him, the boy who has to use girls to do his homework? ” Wood answered with the question? ”
Buffy was slightly disturbed to be reminded of R.J. “ Yeah I remember him. ” Buffy said. “ Painfully ”
“ Well, here I have a pack of files of what they are doing wrong, what they are having problems with, as well as their teachers’ reports on their behaviors. I’d like you to take a look of them, and give me some suggestion on how to handle them. ” Wood told her.
Buffy considered it for a second. She didn’t really like this. She thought she could go home and sleep in as soon as possible. But then she guessed this wouldn’t take too long, and since not many kids have dropped by for her counsel today, she believed she could still get off hook on time.
“ Sure, ” she told him and took the papers from his hands.
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It took her only nearly one hour to finish checking the files and come up with ways of dealing with fourteen out of fifteen kids Wood asked her to help with. She was proud of herself on being able to finish this so fast. She looked around and checked the time. It wasn’t late, but everyone was leaving because the school’s over.
“ Kids these days are so immature. ” Buffy thought, wishing she was the counselor back in her high school time. She was confident that she could had straightened out some troubled people back then if she had the position.
Finally she got to the paper of the last kid, the one she felt awkward to check on. And just when she started reading the paper………
“ Buffy! ” a voice called her with delight
She was startled for a second because the voice was not very familiar to her. She figured out to whom it belonged to as she lifted her head up, her eyes wider than usual.
“ I hope you like that. ” R.J. thought looked at her with a smile (he didn’t have the jacket on). He thought calling her by the first name would get her blushed.
“ Hey ” Buffy responded. She had no idea what to act like with his sudden appearance. She had wanted to him to come to her the whole day so she could get the thing over with. But she had become convinced that he wouldn’t show up. And now he did, and right before she was about to check on him for a way to counsel him. She felt really disorganized to face him.
“ And for the record, I never said you could call me Buffy. ” was the next thing she said.
“ Hmm… Do you prefer that I call you Miss Summers? ” R.J. questioned, already knows the answer to that question. “ You know you don’t ”
And he was right. “ You may call me Buffy. For now. ” Buffy stated.
Before Buffy told him to, he took the seat in front of her desk, in front of her. The fact that no one else but the two of them in the office and his closeness to her put a strong feeling of uneasiness through her body and mind.
“ So… I went to your house last night. Your friends told me you weren’t home. I told them to tell you to call me. But you didn’t. ” R.J. told her.
Buffy became nervous again as she starts her explanation. “ Well R.J. there’s one thing you need to know. I…I didn’t really mean anything I said and did yesterday. ” she felt so embarrassed as she continued. “ My sister and I got into an argument about whose high school time with boys is better and we decided to have a competition and then….” She paused and looked at him, he still has his smile on.
“ And then we realized how stupid it was. I’m sorry. I hope you can forgive me for playing you like a toy.” Ended her explanation with an apology.
“ Not bad! ” R.J. was impressed with Buffy’s idea of the speech she just made. “ You sure that’s all it was? ” R.J. asked
“ Yeah that’s all it was. ” she answered.
R.J. moved his seat (and himself) closer to her, making Buffy more nervous.
“ I’ve had many girls showing affection for me. But none of them went as far as kissing me as you did.” R.J. told her.
Before Buffy could say anything, R.J.’s hand went under the desk and touched her left ankle with his fingertips. His touch was electrifying; silencing any word for coming out her mouth.
“ Have I told you that you have the most beautiful legs I’ve ever seen? ” R.J. said as his fingers slided up on her legs under her skirt and moved around to feel her flesh. “ All those muscles. So soft, so smooth. ” he added on as he learned from her expression that it’s getting hard for her to breath. This amused him greatly.
“ And you are the most beautiful girl I’ve known. ” R.J. stated when his hand reached and started messaging her thigh. Buffy was having urges to moan loudly now.
“ This has to stop NOW! ”Refusing to let that happen and have him continue touching her, Buffy was ready to push him away.
Once again, she was stopped by his move. He grabbed her by the neck and pulled her into a very hard kiss. Another surge of electricity went through her entire body again. But what she didn’t realized was that she didn’t fight at all, she closed her eyes and kissed him back equally hard.
The sensation was stronger than most things she experienced before. It’s like he was draining something out of her and sending something into her at the same time. The images of her dream from last night came back to her mind, making her remember how good she felt.
The contact of their mouths lasted for at least twenty minutes. And suddenly, there was a ringing sound.
“ Hello ” R.J. answered his cell phone after breaking his mouth from Buffy’s. He had to cover the receiver to talk because Buffy was gasping really hard as she tried catch her breath, her eyes were still closed.
“ Well, I kinda have t leave now. Good bye. ” he said and gave Buffy another kiss on her lips. He then leave the office. Unknown to Buffy, nobody called R.J., he made his cell phone ring so he could break the kiss. “ The hungrier you make her, the harder it will be for her to stay away. ” R.J. grinned as he thought so. “ Phrase Two, officially complete.”
Buffy, who was still standing still back in the guidance. She had no idea what exactly had just happened. Her mind was almost blank, but there was one thought in her mind. “ He feels good.”
It was the only thing she thought of for the moment. And she was pretty sure that the emotion she felt was either desire, or love.
Note for the readers about the fiction: This is the second part of a series called Desire To Love, the first fan fiction I’ve ever written.
Summary: This chapter is called The Will To Love. R.J.’s motive is revealed. And Buffy is being
changed without her any of her friend’s knowledge. Spike suspects
something wrong, but he doesn’t know if he should interfere.
The Will To Love
Rating: NC-17
R.J. went back to his place after confronting Buffy. He laid down on his couch and looked at the wall where he has put five pictures of Buffy. “ Any day no,. ” he thought and take down one of the pictures to look at it. “ Then it will be done. ” He starts to remember the night he started his plan, the night he sent himself on this mission of his…….
* * * * * * *
Last Year
R.J. was just walking down on streets after having a night of fun at Bronze. And he suddenly heard
A female voice, and the pretty voice he’s ever hear. He couldn’t help but try to find where it came from. It’ then he saw a guy with bleached hair and a girl fighting. He couldn’t move his eyes from what he was seeing. “ Oh! My! That chick is so Hot! ”
He followed them as the fight continued into abandoned building. He was shook when he saw those two are able throw each other across the room, an break cements. He surprise reached its peak when he saw the girl started kissing the guy.
“ No! Nooooo! ” he burst emotionally and mentally and ran out of the building.
“ I can’t believe I just saw that! ” R.J. thought angrily and looked back to the building.
“ I want you Miss Beautiful, one day you’ll belong to me. And when that day comes, you WILL love me. ” He was filled with determination.
* * * * * * * * *
Ever since that night R.J.’s been doing everything he can to find out about the girl, and he learned her name and that she’s the slayer, as well as many other details he thought he needed. He started working out a lot; trying to make his body more attractive by turning it more muscular. He also started practicing magic. It was a pleasant surprise to him when he realized that the jacket his brother gave him has a love spell on it. Which helped him a lot with magic that temper with people’s mentality.
Now that he was ready to carry out his plan, he was confident that he’d succeed.
“ I will have her, ” he thought and burn the picture in his hand.
* * * * * * * * * *
Buffy got home around dawn after she left school. She was relieved to find that no one was at the house, she really didn’t want to talk to anyone right now. Still feeling great pain, she decided that she’ll just clean herself up and go to sleep.
After the shower, Buffy went straight to her, not wanting to wait for another moment. She didn’t even bother to put some clothes. She preferred sleeping -naked-as-quickly-as-possible than, dress-myself-slowly-and-then-sleep. But to her dismay, she couldn’t fall asleep that soon. She was troubled by her own emotion since her “meeting” with R.J. earlier. She could feel herself craving for another physical contact with him, and it frightened her that she really want to go to the deepest level. Almost like how she felt for Spike not too long ago.
“ But how is it possible that I feel this way for a boy that I met just two days ago? ” She asked herself
“ Mayber she love him ” she heard her voice in her head
“ No!” she told herself softly
She was really confused. All she could think of was that he made her feel increditablly good today. And the things he said, “ you are the most beautiful girl I’ve known.” It really moved her. No one’s ever said that to her, and she never thought she’d ever hear it. And now she has, she was feeling things the way she used to feel during her affairs with Spike. Except this time it’s bigger this time. She hasn’t really slept with boy yet but she’s already yarning to.
“ Don’t try to deny yourself of what you feel, it doesn’t do you good. ” her voice spoke to her again.
“ Alright. I’ll see how things go ” Buffy said, not looking to argue with herself anymore.
She closed her eyes and went to sleep. She was worried that she might start doing something she has no control over, again.
* * * * * * * *
When Buffy woke up next morning, she felt much better, she took a look at herself down there, and the bruise was gone. She was really glad for that. As usual, she got up and started dressing herself. And went downstairs for the breakfast.
“ Morning Buffy!” Dawn said with a smile
“ Morning Dawn,” Buffy greeted back.
“ So, your soreness, is it gone? ” Dawn asked
“ Yep. Now I’m as good as new, ” Buffy answered with a sense of humor
She started working on her breakfast
“ So did things go with R.J? ” Dawn wondered
Buffy didn’t know what to tell know, but she decided to let her anything but the truth.
“ Not so bad, I think he understands well.” Buffy said.
“ So he won’t bother you? That’s good. ” Dawn said with relief.
“ Yeah. I’m sure he will ” Buffy lied. “ I’m pretty sure he’ll ask me on a date today. ”
* * * * * * *
Once again it’s a day in the school, sitting behind her desk and helping the kids with her counsel. She was full of energy this day, she felt that she could spend a hour listening and helping each kid for a hundred timed, and still could go on for much longer.
It’s almost lunch time and some she’d been expecting had finally showed up.
“ Hey!” R.J. said to her with his charming smile. He was wearing a grey jacket and white T-shirt.
“ Hey! ” Buffy smiled back.
“ So how’s the school counselor doing today? ” R.J. asked
“ Not too bad. And does Mr. Brooks need my help? ” Buffy asked almost flirtingly
“ Well as I recall you never finished asking me what you want to know from our private meeting. ” He pointed out
“ Oh well, ” Buffy smiled, and got up from her seat. “ Why don’t we continue now? ”
She took his hand, and dragged him to the unused classroom again. Once they were inside, they started kissing and getting all over each other.
“ This is wrong. But I want it.” Buffy thought
“ Enjoy this my girl. You are never gonna forget me after this. ” Spoke R.J. in his mind.
R.J. took off her shirt and pushed her onto the desks. His hands went to her chest, touching her breasts through her bra, and launched his mouth went sucking her inner thighs.
Before it got more intense.
“ HO! Wait. Gotta stop this.” Her sense told her.
“ We can’t d this. ” she told him
Buffy got up from desks then pushed him away and looked for her shirt.
“ Why? ” R.J. asked with disbelief. “What now?”
“ Because it’s wrong. ” she stated firmly.
“ Why? I saw the way you acted. You know you want it bad, you know you want ME!” R.J. yelled
“ Just because you want to do something doesn’t mean doing it’s right. It’s something you might learn one day when you grow up. ” She said seriously and started moving toward the door.
“ So what if this isn’t right. If it’s what you want you shouldn’t deny yourself of it and the happiness you get from fulfilling your desire. ” he spoke back.
“ Please just forget me ok. You can find many other girls, not someone like me. I’m too old… well maybe not too old. But too old for you. And…. I… I don’t even like you. ” Buffy looked down, she was having a little doubt of her own her words, and it frightened her she that she was doubting.
“ You actually think you like, or even have any kind of feeling for this..this boy. Are you insane!” Her voice talked in her head.
“ I.. I might.” A softer tone of her voice spoke.
R.J. held her chin with his hand.
“ Then tell me you don’t feel anything for this.” He kissed her on the lips again
It felt as good as any other they’ve shared so far. Her mind was floating, it’s not she’s not in control of herself anymore. She was giving in again. Her arms wrapped around him, and her fingers started clutching his back. But then something hit her. She broke the kiss and asked.
“ Do you have protection? ” she asked
“ What!” “ No” he answered.
“ Then we can’t do this. ” Buffy said
Not wanting for him to have a chance to say something to change her mind, she exited the room immediately.
R.J. walked to the nearest desk and punched it forcefully.
“ I can’t believe this!” he sounded madly
But his anger lasted only shortly. And he smiled again
“ Don’t worry. It’s only the beginning. I’ll have another chance. Besides, she’ll come to you. Soon. ” He thought to himself wickedly.
Buffy went back to her seat. She really feel lost and ridiculous. Never in her lifetime she’d imagine that she’d get any sort intimacy with someone she’d known for only a few days. And for the worse, it’s an intimacy with someone she’d known for about 3 days, who’s supposed to be like a student to her. She decided it doesn’t help her to think about what’s wrong with her again, so she put herself back to work, in hope that it could make her mind organized again.
* * * * * * * * *
There’s only a few minutes before the school’s over, and Buffy still feel lost and confused. And she also couldn’t lose her urges to go to R.J. When school bell rang, she thought to leave the building, so she can put distance between herself and R.J.
“ Gotta go far and far away. To the other side of the world if I have to. Anything to get away from….” She was trying to convince herself. But she halted and realized one thing.
“ Oh God!” she was actually walking to the direction of R.J.’s class, again. And she’s only a few feet away from the door.
“ Oh. No. No way. I am so not going in there. ” she tired to control herself.
Somehow, she no control of her legs. She began walking again, slowly. It was like something inside of her was pulling her to him. She managed to stop herself in time before she was too close. But she couldn’t help to look at him through the window. She was startled when he turned to face her and smiled. Her reaction to that was running away immediately. And she kept running until she’s finally out of the building
* * * * * * * * * *
It was around 9:00 PM when Buffy got home from patrol with Spike. She was pretty tired after dusting at least fifteen vampires and slain four demons. She appreciated Spike’s help, but she hadn’t wanted Spike to come along. Ever since he showed up after being gone for three months, it was always uneasy, or even uncomfortable for Buffy to be alone with him for even a moment. Because she can never really talk to him comfortably. When he disappeared, she didn’t know how she felt. She was too busy worrying about insane Willow going on her rampage with dark magic.
But she was hurt that he wasn’t there when she really could have used his help. After the summer had past, she had gotten used to going through things without him, spending time with Dawn and teaching her how to fight.
She really was starting to believe he’s gone for good, just like the others. That’s why she was so surprised when she saw him that day in the basement, only to become even more surprised when she found out that he has a soul.
Everything has been changing in so many unexpected ways. And now she has a job to counsel kids at a school, and never-dying slayer duty, it’s like her responsibility has become twice as much. She didn’t have time to have a real conversation with him, especially with his insanity problem
And now he’s getting better, and quieter, it’s getting easier to talk to him. But somehow every time he’s around she always has problem with what to say to him, or how to act like. His presence always give her a feeling of penetration. It still does.
It discomforted her to just be herself to him. The last time she did that, they both ended up miserable. And if she did too much pretending on him, it would make him think she has something to hide and starts give her hard time.
She’s not giving up on him however. She did anything she could to help him to live the unlife with a soul. But she tended to avoid any heart-to-heart conversation.
They got inside of her house and sat in the living room.
“ So like your job at the school? ” Spike asked
“ Well it’s not exactly. ” Buffy answered casually
“ The kids giving you bloody hard times? ” he said
“ The thing about being the school counselor is that you have to listen to a lot complains first. ” Buffy stated
“ So you have to endure the discomfort of people’s complain. And then you have to form a plan for them solve their perceptive problems. ” She continued.
“ Takes bloody lot of maturity to do that. ” He said.
“ Yeah it does.” Buffy agreed
“ And you got more of it in you than anyone. ” Spike told her
There was a sudden silence. She didn’t know what to say next.
“ Well, I got enough to help the youngsters. ” she blobbed out, with a fake smile.
This was one of the main reason she had not wanted being alone with him. He always managed to say something that either didn’t want admit, or making her react the way she didn’t want to.
He suddenly smelled something on her. And he got pretty curious.
“ Has that boy been bothering you? ” He questioned
“ What boy? ” She asked back
“ The boy that has the love spell jacket. ” He confirmed.
Buffy was startled for a second.
“ No. Why? ” She said almost to nervously.
“ His scent is kinda bloody all over you. ” He stated.
This detection made her panicked momentarily.
“ Oh shot. I forgot all about vampire sense of smell. ”
“ Oh well, it’s quite funny to mention this. ” She said, having thought a explaination.
“ After that guy lost his jacket, no girl was really nice to him anymore. So he kept coming to me, complaining, and crying about how heartbroken he is. I had to hug him just about everytime he came to me to calm him down. I guess that’s how his scent got on me.” Buffy lied with a laugh, hoping the humor in her story would help her convince him. ”
“ Oh. ” Spike said, seemly sounded convinced.
“ Well I pretty sure he’ll get to the reality of which he’s not charming soon enough.” Buffy added.
Spike thought for a second.
“ She definitely not telling me something. ”
“ Oh well. Wouldn’t want to hang around this late. Have a nice night. ” he said, thinking it’s time to leave.
He got up and left the house.
Buffy felt a bit relieved from the tension. She worried if he suspected anything. He’s always seemed to be able to see through her. If he knew what was really going on she’d become beyond embarrassed
She has been able to manage to show that is no more sparks between them. But of course, it’s just her performance. Deep down in her heart, he was someone that she needs, someone that understands her fully and capable of comforting her.
And now, she’s come up with some sort of affair with someone else. It made her feel as if she’s cheating on him. Something she can never find anyone to confide with. She can already tell how bad it’s gonna be, and she won’t be able to stop herself. It felt almost scarier than facing the end of the world.
* * * * * * * * *
On his way back to Xander’s. Spike kept thinking the possibilities that there was something Buffy wasn’t telling him.
“ What can it be? ” He wondered.
“ Something like I have a new boy friend, and he goes to high school? ” He thought with a laugh.
But then the thought froze him as he realized that it could be possible.
“ Could it?”
* * * * * * * * *
The next day was a sunny Friday, and not too many kids had big problems.
“ This is a good day.” Buffy thought.
Then he showed up.
“ Hello ” R.J. said with his usual greeting tone.
“ Ho No, please don’t do this to me, ” Buffy had hoped he wouldn’t show. Obviously it’s idiotic.
“ Hey. ” She couldn’t help but to give him a happy smile.
“ Have you had lunch yet? ” he asked with his seductive tone.
“ I hope not. Because I’ve arranged lunch for you already. ” He thought.
“ No. ” still bearing the smile, but she was really nervous, knowing what he was implying.
“ Wanna join me then? ” he showed her his hand.
“ No you can’t. It’s wrong remember? ” she was fighting the urges to go with him with all her sense.
The conflict of her senses and her desires formed a expression of pain on her face. He was pleased to see her so nearly helpless against him.
She gave in and took his hand.
He pulled her and led her to the unused classroom again. Once they got inside the room they started pawing each other again. Buffy still felt wrong to do this, but she couldn’t stop herself.
“ Do you have protection ready? ” She asked again, hoping that it get her out of this again.
R.J. grinned. “ What? You think you can slip out of my fingers again? ”
“ Of course. I’ve already put it on” he told her.
“ Oh God! ” She started feeling helpless
“ Really? ” she asked
“ You’ll find out in just a few seconds. ” He said delightfully.
He started kissing her again. They got on the desks with him on top. She undid his pants as he took off her shirt and threw them across the room. He then worked on the clothing of her lower body. He got rid of her skirt, and threw away her shoes.
Suddenly, he stopped.
“ What? ” she asked curiously as she looked up to him.
“ Do you really want this? I mean do you want to stop? ” he said.
“ I hate to keep the doing this. But I have to act as much innocently as possible. ” He reminded himself in his head.
Buffy was surprised he would ask such question that she couldn’t talk back. She got the look of questioning on her face.
“ It’s just… that you seemed not really want to do this. If this is gonna hurt you then…..”
He cut by her sudden kiss and she wrapped her arm around him, clutching his back.
“ I take that this is your yes ” R.J. thought
He laid her back down, and started getting back to what he was doing before. Undressing her. Now she’s only clothed in her undergarments, he could barely wait to see her nude form.
She took off his shirt and saw his muscular body. The view mesmerized her. He looked better than he did in her dream she had earlier. He then unhooked her bra and started massaging her breasts like the way he did in the dream.
“ Oh! God! ” Buffy moaned softly.
“ This feels so good. ” She thought.
He increased the force of movement on her soft flesh slowly, and took one of her nipples into his mouth. Her moaning became as she felt the his mouth.
“ So soft. So smooth. So sweet. So warm. So beautiful. ” He was enjoying the feel of her body immensely.
He lifted himself up and backed down to her lower section again, and removed her pantie. Slowly, he caressed her legs gently. The tenderness of her skin was beyond comfortable to him. He wanted to make this last as long as possible.
“ Please. ” he heard her begging.
He grinned. It was pleasing that she craved to feel him.He pushed her legs apart, and started dirnking from her heat.
“ Oh… OH ” her moan loudly. The sound she was making almost reached the level of a sonic blast.
It was hard for her to keep still, her legs instinctively clamped around his head. The tightness was making him uncomfortable so he pushed them apart and held them still in place. As he kept on sucking her, she felt her entire being was being drained from inside out, it was like a strong rush of pleasure.
Finally, her body tensed began shaking as she went through the orgasmic explosion. When it’s over, she started panting, and her eyes were closed. R.J. let her be for few moments. Then he started licking around her thighs drinking her expelled essence. She was completely unable to move, and out of breath
“ It’s gonna take a long time to recover from this. ” She thought.
He lifted up and saw her still panting.
“ I hope you are ready for this. ” He thought.
He parted her legs again and positioned himself then went for a straight thrust into her.
She practically screamed. His sudden intrusion pained her, literally. Soon she felt the pleasure of being fulfilled as he moved with slowly within her. Her eyes were still closed, but the expression on her face was clear to him. It was showing that she’s experiencing both pain and pleasure. He was enjoying that he could make her feel that way.
“ Good girl. ” His mind was full of satisfaction.
At least, he found his release, rocked violently with her. When he stopped, he collapsed on top of her. They remained in that position for a couple minutes, then he got and looked for his watch to check time.
“ Oh no. Look at this. Lunch time is way over. I’m gonna be late for my next class. ” He tried sound worried.
He quickly looked for his clothes and put them on while Buffy watched him, still laying on the desks lazily. She was looking tired. He got fully dressed and started exiting the room.
“ Sorry. I have to go. ” he told her.
“ I’ll see you later. ” she said to him softly
He looked back to her briefly and smiled before he left.
Buffy sighed. She wanted to keep lying down. But she figured it’s best to get back to the office as soon as possible before she’s been foun absent. She walked all over the room to find all her clothes. After she put them back on, she wanted to check on herself to make sure she didn’t look all messed up which could make people suspect something. She looked around again and noticed that there were no mirrors in the room.
“ Gotta use lady’s room then.” She looked down and sighed again.
Then she heard the bell rang. She waited for a few minutes before openeing the door and noticed there was no one on the hallway.
“ Good. Wouldn’t want anyone to see me if I look messed up. ” she thought, and started walking herself to the nearest lady’s room.
Her pace was neither fast, not slow. She didn’t want run, but she felt if she didn’t get out of public view quick enough, she’ll have more things to deal with. She also felt a little sore so she couldn’t move very quickly.
“ He was rougher than I thought.”
She found went into a bathroom close to her office, to check her reflection.
She saw her hair messy and there’s one small hackey, on her lower neck. She fixed her hair and lucky for her, the hackey could be covered by her shirt. Once she put herself back to the proper shape, she began to turn around and leave. She felt a small pain on her legs.
She pulled up her skirts and saw an purple area on her right inner thigh and touched it gently.
“ I can’t believe he could do this.” She thought. She pulled the skirt down and moved again, and could still feel the soreness.
None of her sexual experience she had with anyone had given her so much aftereffects, except for her times with Spike. She stopped as she thought of him and the sense of guilt come to her mind again.
Suddenly a small surge of energy swam her mind.
“ No time to think, Gotta go back now. ” Her mind to her, and she left the bathroom.
She got back to her chair and massaged her legs softly. Then a new question entered her head.
“ How did this happened? How could I feel sore from having……having sex with a high school boy? He’s not strong, the only kind sex I had that made sore was with….
Another surge of energy surfed across her mind again. This time it was stronger, it made her dizzy and she closed her eyes. It took a few moments til the surge ceased. When she opened again, her previous thoughts had ceased to be.
“ Gotta no time to waste for thinking. Better get back to work. ” She thought.
And going back to work she did. When the school’s over, she began packing her stuff, getting ready to leave.
“ Hey. ” R.J. said
“ Hi. ” Buffy greeted back.
There was a moment of silence. R.J. broke it.
“ So…. Would you like me to drive you home? ” He asked.
“ Wow yes! ” She thought.
“ You have a car? ” She asked him.
“ Of course. How could I drive you home if I don’t. ” He pointed out.
The thought of spending time alone with him was exciting for her.
“ I’d love to have you to drive me home. ” She said with a pleasant look.
He led her to his car, and started the car. As he drove he thought.
“ This is great! Everything is going as planned. It won’t be long before it’s completed. ”
The sentence ended in his mind with a grinning look on his face.
* * * * * * *
Spike was pacing around under the roof of the doorstep of Summers house. He was really confused and anxious to find the truth. He wasn’t looking for an explanation from Buffy, he knew she didn’t owe him one. But the fact that she was doing something that she wouldn’t share details of with him and anyone she knows as far as he could tell made him worried if she’ll get herself hurt. But he wished that he could just ignore his instincts. Ever since he got back from Africa with a soul, he was determined that he’d only help Buffy to save the world, and take no other part in her life at all.
He had tried to be more than all he could ever be to her before, and it led him brokenhearted. Now he has a soul, it could help him to remind him, to keep telling himself one thing he believed to be important to remember, “ she’ll never love you back. ” The fact that he still loved her and could nothing to make it go away pained him severely. But he won’t walk away if he finds that Buffy’s in bad hands. Since he didn’t have much to do he decided to show up earlier and wait for her to get her and talk to her to see if she’d sound usual again and then….. . He doesn’t know what he should do, after all he’s made clear to himself that Buffy’s personal matters are not his concerns, and he’ll not interfere, unless something’s really wrong with her.
As he paced around and waited Buffy to show up he saw a car he had never seen before, and Buffy was sitting in the front seat with R.J. in the driving. He was surprised that Buffy would get in a car with someone, a high school student that she knew for only a few days.
“ Something’s definitely not bloody right.” He though and pick up his blanket to cover himself and get behind a tree. He was trying to find a good spot so no one would notice the smoke that was rising from his covered body.
He managed to get into a position that he could conceal himself, and paid all his attention to observe them. If was hard, because even with the blanket, the sun was making him painful. But he determinedly keep his eyes on the two.
“ Thanks for the ride. ” Buffy said as she got out of the car.
“ No prob, anytime.” R.J. said with a smirk.
Buffy leaned in to kiss him on the lips, it wasn’t a goodbye kiss, it was real. The view shook Spike, his showed that he was deeply hurt.
“ So I’ll see you? ” R.J. asked
“ Every seconds I hope. ” He thought.
“ Sure. ” He told her.
He closed the door and drove away, and Buffy went back to her house. At this point, Spike leaned his back onto the tree and closed his eyes. He wasn’t feeling the pain from the sun boiling him, but from what he just saw. He quickly recovered himself, and struggle to think what he’s suppose to do next.
“ Something’s definitely not bloody right. Unless I don’t know Buffy. ” He thought.
He couldn’t believe what he just saw just happened because no way Buffy would go that deep with someone that soon. Only if she become a slut, which is also impossible.
He thought more for sometime, and made his decision.
“ I guess I’ll check on the boy. But I gotta have a bloody way in first. ” He thought.
* * * * * * *
Spike had been working on learning R.J. ever since the afternoon. He has found out much, but he got to know where he lived. It took him sometime to acquire a Pizza Hut uniform then a box of pizza. He also tried to make his face look different anyway he could, and went for a visit.
He found the apartment, and made sure if he was ready.
“ Gotta act bloody well now. Don’t mess up. ”
He knocked the door and R.J. answered.
R.J. studied the figure before him, and didn’t recognize him.
“ What the…” was his first thought before he talked
“ I didn’t order pizza. ” R.J. told Spike.
“ Really, but I checked, this should be the right address. ” he handed R.J. a piece of paper.
R.J. checked it.
“ Yeah it’s the place alright but I didn’t order it. ” He said truthfully.
“ Well too bad for whoever did. They might ever get cold pizza or no pizza. ” Spike said with a poor tone.
R.J. thought for a second.
“ Well I am kinda hungry. I could pay for it. ” R.J. said.
“ That would be cool. And could you invite me in and let me use the phone. So I can tell the boss about this. ” Spike said with a smile
“ Sure. Come in. ” R.J. told him.
“ Yes. ” Spike thought as he succeeded in getting the invitation.
After he got in he kept played along to not blow his cover. As soon as he got out, he quickly left the building and got rid the delivery uniform and things on his face with his hands. He got a doorway now. Now he’ll just have to find the right time to go into the boy’s place and see if this guy is up to something. Somewhere deep in his mind, he hoped he was.
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